Jeg vil kelde dig. [i will tickle you!]

so my life is WACK.

school is actually pretty fun, and i don't mind waking up too early--staying up too late reading the twilight series is pretty much worth it. it seems like every night, is new, fresh and fun.

monday nights--fhe w/ some of the most hilarious people alive
tuesday nights--break dance club; 'nough said
wednesday nights--enrichment if i'm lucky (this time we watched disney's mulan and gorged on popcorn)
thursday nights--whatever pleases me, which is very nice; i can either relax, splurge on groceries @ walmart or eat theraputic ice cream w/ my roomates; whatever i say goes
friday nights--as weird as it sounds, cleaning night. i hate doing work on saturdays because that in itself has so many things i have to do--it's a good way to get my chores out of the way and pesky homework assignments out of my hair. can you believe it? one of the first things we established in our apartment was a) the "chastity" line--a line by our hallway where boys aren't allowed to pass (they have easy access to our comfortable couches, table and sadly, our kitchen) and a chore wheel. our carpets look LOVELY right now, because it's leaf-free. fall has surely fallen and has made its way into our apartment.

it's amazing. my roomates and i have become so comfortable w/ each other, it's not even funny. i mean, it's not like it was awkward, but you have to imagine, i've only been living w/ these people for--what?--2 1/2 months or so? that's not a very long time, and we are so different from everyone else, we're all trying to figure out our lives, how to survive each day that comes and where we want to be at the end of it all. not to mention--who's gonna clean up all those dishes?? absolutely.

but i've noticed that i've become SO comfortable w/ all of them--and i can tell, because my sarcasm, bluntness and sharpness is bubbling to the surface. i hope they don't take me for a apathetic weirdo for all the things that i spit out sometimes. if i had to pick the five girls i wanted to live w/ the first few months away from family...i wouldn't pick anyone else!

okay, enough of the crap. everyone wants to know--HOW'S THE SOCIAL LIFE?

what social life? haha

just kidding. so i guess something's happening, but it's scaring the crap out of me.

boy#1 is chris, a guy i met on a sort of "blind" date. aka, i wasn't asked by him to go on this double date and i'd only briefly met him once before and thought he was kinda cute. apparantly he's FRIGGING SHY because it's been 3 weeks and he hasn't said a word to me, even something mild and innocent as "so how was your halloween?" i suppose i shouldn't worry; he's a "premie" after all. vocab lesson: premie= a young man that hasn't served an LDS mission but plans to do so once he gets his "mission call" or letter that says where he's been called to serve. aka, he won't be thinking of steady dating, or serious relationships in order to "focus."
RIIIIIIGHT.

boy#2 is david, a guy in my ward, and he lives in my same apartment complex. he's really nice, and i found out that he's a military brat, too. i knew i was bound to meet one sooner or later. he called me yesterday to ask me if i could go bowling that night. i kinda think it was sort of last minute, but i actually made plans to go to storyteller's club (my friend has been bugging me all semester to go). so i felt super bad and i had made plans to go watch WALL-E at our BYU dollar theater tonight, so i sort of asked him to come w/ me to compensate for yesterday. i dunno, it seems like whenever he calls me, i'm never there to pick up the phone, so i don't want him to think i'm trying to avoid him. he's not...weird, but i don't want to go on "i really like you dates." i just want to go sort of as...friends? can i handle a real relationship...w/ someone that i see every sunday?? kind of awkward.

and obviously, i've had a unique dating experience. it's one of those weird instances where i ACTUALLY found a real, affectionate guy that is pretty much everything i could ever want in a person and we dated for a few years before he went on HIS mission (to Santa Maria, Brazil mission!) so i've never *technically* broken up w/ someone before, or done anything w/ someone BESIDES travis (the guy mentioned in previous sentences). i've got serious feelings towards travis and i...don't want to mess w/ that. but he wanted me to not be a hermit in college, and dad made me promise to be nice to boys, so i'm trying. i'm not desperately throwing myself out there saying, "PLEASE DATE ME!!!PLEASE!" but i'm still going to as many fun things as possible to meet people. there's so many good-looking guys in our ward and they make the perfect guy friends ever.

anyway. so there.

*sigh* it's been merely months, and i'm not sure how much my roomates notice...but i miss travis every day of my life. it's an endurance thing; i WILL be in texas to see him when he comes back in two years minus 3 months, but sometimes reading letters once a week doesn't cut it. it's been done before, and i find myself to be patient. but it's not like i forget about him or have already moved on like so many ditzy girls do. i'm so much more than that; i'm different. he's different. most guys can't stand being w/ the same girl for a week, month tops. he's been there for me...at least 4 years now. no one can compare to him, not even close.

haha, poor david--we're meeting to watch the movie in 2 hours! i promise i'll behave. i hope i don't hurt his feelings. he is a really nice guy.

*MAJOR SIGH*

whitters, signing off.